I remember how alienated I felt when I first came out, the people with whom I thought would understand and accept me the most rejected me and made me feel the worst.
For some reason lesbians (gay men were extremely welcoming) found me disgusting and a freak of nature because I needed to decide on who I wanted to be “with” and stick to it.
I could’ve sworn the “B” in LGBT stood for bisexual which means the community is accepting of people who are Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender. I was told on numerous occasions that I was “confused” and I needed to decide if I wanted to be with men or women. It honestly left me baffled and hurt, how could someone who clearly understood where I was coming from make me feel so bad for something that’s uncontrollable to me. During a time when people were becoming very accepting of gays and lesbians I felt like I was on a planet by myself.
Because of how I was treated in the past, I’ve found myself as an adult not so open to speaking on my sexuality because ignorance is real and further more how can you have pride in who you are, when you’ve felt ostracised by the same people who are supposed to be accepting of you?