Sorry to disappoint new year same me…
I no longer make annual lifestyle affirmations of changes to come, I make daily sometimes minutely lifestyle affirmations of change.
The last year has been quite an adventure, my mother and I reconciled somewhat (it’s conditional of course, that condition being the minute I feel like she’s over stepping boundaries I’m out. I’ve made that super clear to her) we haven’t resolved any of our issues because she lacks remorse or the ability to acknowledge, anything. I’ve decided that’s her issue and I chose to move forward accepting her flaws, but demanding respect. You see I had to change in order for our relationship to change, I’d been dwelling on my pain and letting it define me and once I decided to heal myself instead of waiting for her acknowledgement or words to heal me life got a little easier.
I’ve had some bumps in my marriage, and we’re healing, relationships of any kind can be challenging. People change, and you have to decide if you’re willing to deal with that change good or bad. Throughout this process I’ve learned you can’t quit just because you don’t like what’s going on. And I’m not ashamed to admit it but in the past I’ve been a quitter (this isn’t entirely true, being a parent is the hardest job I’ve ever had and I’ve never quit on my kids), when shit has gotten hard, I just quit because I didn’t like to be uncomfortable or put in a space where I didn’t have control of the final outcome.